So this was me, then: I dive into a new interest, be it an activity, hobby, or a person. I mean, I actually dive into. I go in head first, then my torso follows, and not long after my legs and when my feet disappear, I’m gone. Why is it ‘head over heels’? Shouldn’t it […]
The source of my social anxiety fatigue as an introvert is probably not uncommon: I’m an emotional intuitive (an empath). I don’t always act upon my empathy—that requires consciously and intentionally processing what I pick-up and interacting in return with loving kindness. I act on it more now than I did before I entered recovery. […]
Removing the word ‘mistake’ from one’s vocabulary turns every struggle into an adventure. These are all products of mistake-thinking: ‘doing it wrong’, ‘failing’, ‘looking like a fool’. The end result of all this nonsense is giving up. Without the concept of ‘mistake’ to distract you and discourage you, every process in life becomes an adventure! […]
My disease wants me identify with thought, write with proper diction, connect thoughts with logic, compare and contrast, bring hierarchy into order. My soul wants me to live from the heart. At one point about ten years ago, my heart was battered and bruised and short of breath. I shut it down. Locked it up […]
When the Twelve Steps were created in the 1930s, the founders didn’t know as much about the disease of alcoholism as we do today. But they understood how alcoholism feels and how it destroys lives. They also found a way to help people recover that has worked for almost 90 years. Back then, alcoholics experienced […]
I’ve always felt this nostalgia as an aching, a loneliness, and as a desire to flee to a place that doesn’t exist. It is a place of my dreams, a community of love and light and joy and peace, living off the land, self-sufficient, and all sacred paths converge there and there are even agnostics […]
When the Twelve Steps were first formulated in the 1930s, its founders didn’t have the understanding of many aspects of alcoholism and the human condition that we have today. Nevertheless, they did have a very accurate and intimately personal understanding of the experience of alcoholism, its destructive progression, and a nascent grasp on a very […]
“When you feel in yourself the addictive attraction of alcohol, remember these words: You stand between the two worlds of your lesser self and your full self. Your lesser self is tempting and powerful because it is not as responsible, not as loving, and not as disciplined, so it calls you. The other part of […]
I recently came to the realization that, for a good portion of the last few years, I’ve been steadfast in the activity of ‘not-dying’ as opposed to truly ‘living’. In the fall of 2022, I made a decision to not end my life and instead reached out for help. At the time, I had been […]
The Peace of Wild Things 
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