A Gradual re-Awakening

I write about recovery from addiction without religion, but spirituality has always been something that has given me great meaning in life. And the meaning of spirituality has changed for me over time. I was raised without any religious belief and was encouraged by loving parents to ‘find my own path’. I visited a couple […]

Beyond belief

I wasn’t raised in any sort of religion. My parents never went to church. My father was raised in an Anglican tradition, but didn’t practice faith at all in adulthood. His only statement on religion was this, “They all say the same thing—live by the golden rule.” My mother was raised in a fire and […]

un-birthing (grief)

grief approachesopens its mouthwailing (is grief wailing or am I?)clutches latches and sucksforms a cordrelentless pressurerips you openburies itselffeeds night and dayever-changing form (so you don’t get used to it)gestates yearsshrinking slowlyinto memoryleaving scarsthat never fade

Squirrel!

I was just diagnosed with ADHD. I always suspected I fell into that flavour of neurodivergence, so it’s helpful to get the empirical confirmation. I have a strong bias toward the AD part, although in my early years I scored top marks in both attention deficit and hyperactivity. Over course of my life, the most […]

Me, then and now.

So this was me, then: I dive into a new interest, be it an activity, hobby, or a person. I mean, I actually dive into. I go in head first, then my torso follows, and not long after my legs and when my feet disappear, I’m gone. Why is it ‘head over heels’? Shouldn’t it […]

NO MISTAKES

Removing the word ‘mistake’ from one’s vocabulary turns every struggle into an adventure. These are all products of mistake-thinking: ‘doing it wrong’, ‘failing’, ‘looking like a fool’. The end result of all this nonsense is giving up. Without the concept of ‘mistake’ to distract you and discourage you, every process in life becomes an adventure! […]