human, being

How do we measure our own worth? This is arguably the most important question that underpins everyone’s mental health journey. Most people today are preoccupied by how much they are worth, how much others value them, and how to increase their self-worth not only in their own eyes but also in the eyes of others. […]

Spiritual check-in

This blog seems to be wandering around a lot, but it’s not lost. I started it as a platform to express my gratitude for Secular 12 Step Recovery, how it saved my life, what I’ve learned about it, how it fills a life-saving demand for a program that’s not God-centered but still incorporates recovery from […]

Give and take

The source of my social anxiety fatigue as an introvert is probably not uncommon: I’m an emotional intuitive (an empath). I don’t always act upon my empathy—that requires consciously and intentionally processing what I pick-up and interacting in return with loving kindness. I act on it more now than I did before I entered recovery. […]

Conscious life

“When you feel in yourself the addictive attraction of alcohol, remember these words: You stand between the two worlds of your lesser self and your full self. Your lesser self is tempting and powerful because it is not as responsible, not as loving, and not as disciplined, so it calls you. The other part of […]

The ups and downs of magical thinking

Magical thinking is harmless unless it becomes a liability. Dreaming of meeting that special person gives me hope, but imagining the person I just met at the coffee shop is my soulmate because she likes the same obscure bands as me is problematic. Yes, it means I met someone with whom I share an interest. […]

Security and identity

I’ve been writing notes on two topics, security and identity, and I just realized that, together, they are actually one topic. For me, at least. I was always looking for someone else to provide me with security. I’ve never been willing to provide security for myself, even in sobriety. My relationship with security makes up […]

self-compassion

Love yourself, they say. But what if we haven’t a clue about healthy love actually is? On top of that, ask any ten people to define love and you’ll get ten different responses back. Love is a lot like ‘spirituality’: when we try to define love, we don’t find its limits but instead our own. […]

Spiritual bypass

“Spirituality is one of those realities that we have only so long as we seek it; as soon as we stop seeking, we stop finding; as soon as we think we’ve got it, we’ve most certainly lost it.” Kurtz, E. & Ketchum, K. What does the spiritual journey seek? A wise teacher would probably reply […]

bound to be boundless

“When we attempt to ‘define’ spirituality, we discover not its limits, but our own.” ~ Ernest Kurtz and Katherine Ketchum, The Spirituality of Imperfection. Religion concerns itself with boundaries: belief against unbelief, insiders against outsiders, church and state, etc. If I try to define spirituality, I can refer only to my own incompleteness and am […]